Where Have I Been You Ask?

I won't be doing much typing...I think..It's been a lovely week...We week of pain, sleep, pain again, and lots and lots of drugs...none of which I am sure are helping. Here's a brief summary for anyone who actually cares...Friday Nov. 10 - 6:30 am - Arrive at hospital, tell hubby she should be done by 1:pm.....8:am surgery time....10:am..wake me up....230pm still in recovery cannot get this patients oxygen levels up..hmm..must be me there talking about...DEEP BREATHES!!! The nurse is yelling at me????!!! I am breathing, not hard enough apparantely..Let's see I have 2 huge supports up my nose and lost a tonsil which according to all of you was crazy for the doctor to do all at once as a tonsillectomy is the most painful adult surgery to have and you're yelling at me? anwyay ...morphine...ahhhhhhhhh....3:pm into recovery......sleep, sleep, more drugs..i think i have to pee...weeeeeeeee..just about fell...okay more drugs....sleep, sleep...It's 7:pm....why am I still here? We need to get the bleeding under control and just make sure your oxygen levels stay okay...alright..feeling some pain, more drugs.....ahhhh.....May have to admitt you..bleedding to much...oh okay....I am seriuolsy in la la land and thinking being admited might be okay if they just keep shooting me with these drugs......8:30..okay the bleeding has slowed we are going to let you go home..if it continues..come back..alrighty..

Next day...WHAT DID THEY DO TO ME? PAIN! PAIN!! Cannot breathe....through mouth, lost my tonsil...holy crap..where's the morphine.!? Tylenol 3's..whatever dude...going to the clinic..hmm...fever 104.1...back to hospital....NOW! more bleeding, and now fever....Awww..hospital...more morphine..love you ppl..and take some of this, and this and come back if you get any worse...

2 hours later..Cannot stop itching..Jay what is that..why can I not stop itching? Hives! Wow, look at your tounge!!! Clinic, allergic reaction to drug..which one? let's try this one..Okay must be it..go home...yes Benedryll much better...take drug...45 mintues later..SERIOUSLY! Wrong drug...back to clinic! Hey here new meds..much better...okay can I start to recover NOW? Sure...5 days in bed, no talking, no eating, no nothing. What happened to all those books Vick gave me? Those movies put together for me? What happnened to my leiusrely week in bed with all this good attention I was gonna get? Whatever, let me sleep...cannot speak..
Day 6..get tubes from nose removed...Holy shit how did those things fit in my nose.....seriously long and wide but yes I can breathe! still can't feel my tongue, burnt beyond belief due to allergic reaction but I can breathe..maybe food now...Yes, jello and chicken broth...nice...Lost 14 lbs!!! sweet! worth it? maybe..Tongue will recover in about a week and both my specialists and family dcotor were amazed that I have healed as nicely as I did considering what happened to me...One doctor reffered it to taking the hottest slice of pizza you can imagine and sticking it directly on your tongue...killing the whole thing....that's what the allergic reaction did, very weird.

Not worth it....It maybe only a week and a half and even though my kids have been here the whole time I miss them soooo much...I cannot believe in a week how much they have changed. Teagan and Jordan are listening, and talking! Talking so much and Cassie and Cameron are just nice little kids. Oh thank you to everyone for everything and all your help but I want my life back now! and I'm sure you want yours back too!
Few more days I should be back at it....now I am enjoying the chill out, play with the kids and sleep when you want part.
I love my kids.